A Brand New Life Inside

29th December 2012,

I am 14 weeks pregnant. Yeah, my second pregnancy. I've once told my hubby - my life turned 180 degrees after marrying him, turned another 180 degrees after delivered Joel... and I guess will turn another 180 degrees after deliver the 2nd baby. Well, it's part and parcel of life. You. Will need to loose something to get something. I remembered of complaining to my sis I've lost one wing... and gonna loose another wing soon. So pathetic... am gonna stuck without wings.... there goes my freedom, here comes all the responsibilities of being a mother.

I think I've been complaining much and still not able to move on. I need to learn to be thankful in every situation, every phases of life has some reason for us to grow and enjoy.

I paused today and evaluate my life. Gonna be the end of the year in few days time. Gonna be 3rd year of our marriage anniversary. How much changes in these 3 years? I paused and my heart filled with gratitude and thankfulness. Thank God for giving me such wonderful husband, a loving and active boy... and coming little new life. I praise God for the support of family and friends. I praise God for a stable job and enriching life.

Now... I need to get back to God. To change my fear with faith, my doubts with determination to go through this season victoriously. I need to get back to Him in prayers. I've neglected Him and filled myself with all unimportant issues. It's time to get real... Jesus, here I come.

Joel’s Milestone Chart

Age	Milestones
1 month	Responds to sound – startled with loud sound Stares at faces Follows objects briefly with eyes Can see black-and-white patterns Smiles – a little, after milk or after good sleep
2 months	Lifts & turn heads  when lying on tummy to sleep Vocalizes: gurgles and coos Follows objects across field of vision Notices his hands – fingers still closed Holds head up for short periods Smiles, laughs (little) Coos when you talk to him Imitates sounds: "emma” Holds head at 45-degree angle Lifts head and shoulders when lying on tummy (mini-pushup) Vocalizes: oohs and aahs Sighing
3 months	Recognizes your face and scent Holds head steady when on tummy Visually tracks moving objects Squeals, gurgles, coos Blows bubbles Recognizes your voice Does mini-pushup Rolls over, from tummy to back (little) Rolls over, from back to tummy (twice) Turns toward loud sounds Can bring hands together, bats at toys Able to take off handkerchief put on face - peekaboo Smiles, laughs Fingers sucking Able to burp on his own
4 months	Loud shout – ahh Able to splash on water during bath Holds head steady Can grasp a toy Rolls over, from tummy to back Plays with his hands and feet Turns toward new sounds Turns toward sounds and voices Separation anxiety may begin Able to sit upright with little support Rolls over, from tummy to back
5 months	Imitate sound – “baba mama” Say “Ahhh..” to attract attention Ready for solid food – mashed potatoes, pear & apple Mouth objects Rolls over in both directions Distinguishes between bold colors Turns toward sounds and voices Drags objects toward himself Mouths objects Jabbers or combines syllables May be ready for solid foods
6 months	Is ready for solid foods Sits momentarily without support Imitates sounds – papa & mama Rolls over in both directions Passes objects from hand to hand Drags objects toward himself Can bear weight on legs Recognizes own name
7 months	Sits without support Lunges forward or starts crawling Bangs objects together Begins to understand object permanence Start to have a little separation anxiety Crawl and cruising
8 months	Stands while holding onto something Says "mama" or "dada" to parents (isn't specific) Point at object Searches for hidden objects Cruises while holding onto furniture
9 months	Cuts first tooth Stands while holding onto something Jabbers or combines syllables Picks things up with thumb-finger pincer grasp
10 months	Waves goodbye Says "mama" or "dada" to the correct parent Puts objects into a container
11 months	Plays patty-cake and peek-a-boo Stands alone for a couple of seconds Eats with fingers Indicates wants with gestures Says one word besides "mama" or "dada"
12 months	Imitates others' activities Indicates wants with gestures Stands alone for a couple of seconds Stoops from standing position

Man of my life

Blogging after such long silence. Previously I can spare much time to blog but after being a mother.. things seem so tight up, so busy.. with baby, also trying to catch up with sleep.

It has been 11months plus. The joy and struggles of being a mother. The most rewarding part is to hear Joel uttered mama..  Many to comes, taking each phase as it comes with determination. With hubby as my pillar of strength.. I am blessed to have two wonderful man in my life...